Friday, February 26, 2010

All the things I thought of today part one.

I can actually say there are about ten times in a day where I see or think something in general and I think, "Oh, gee, I should blog about this!"  By the end of the day unfortunately, I forget what most of those things were. Trying to work on that one!  So I may end up going off on a few tangents today because I'm thinking of so many things today; money, my friendships, the olympics, my trying dog, ex boyfriends, home decor, video cameras, online name a few.  How do I keep up? Ok, I'll try to condense it.

Ok, money is first because I like that one the least. Lately, I've been having lottery fantasies; ie thinking of how I'd spend all that money. Of course, there are a few categories of lottery winning. There's 1 million, 10 million, and 40 million. So of course the sepending goes from reasonable, like paying off loans and getting a nice condo, to buying vacation homes all over the world and a rolls royce! So with that being said, I have, of course been buying lottery tickets almost every week. I am being reasonable and economic about it, I only buy about 5 bucks worth, plus the extra. So it's a harmless hobby that is nice to daydream about. Although I must say I think it has reached it's peak. It was really on my mind a lot more a month its waning, thank god, and I don't hyperventilate every time I check my lotto numbers.  I feel that one of the reasons that I'm feeling this way right now is that I'm not rolling in dough right now. But I don't like to talk about my financial situation....I can afford what I need with a little treat in between....a very little treat right now! I think I'm just sick of all this loan paying and being responsible with my money thing. Thus the lottery fantasies. I'm also feeling a little guilty because the last month or so I have been spending a little more recklessly than I should have and now I'm pissy that I have to 'buckle down'.  Ohhhh, but I just saw about 20, 000 things I want and I can't even buy one of them right now! Stupid sense of responsibility. Now I'm just irritated. Rrrrrrrr. In any case, I've decided to go get a second job again for the summer to make all that extra moola I so badly want. Stupid student loans, will you never be done! I swear to god if I can't go back to school full time this fall I'm going to throw away all my belongings and go live on the beach in a hut somewhere.

My friendships.....don't even get me started on that one.  Makes me sound ungrateful, I do love all my friends, just some of them stress me out more than others. (oh god bless me those of you who don't stress me out at all!) I hope I don't stress mine out too badly most of the time, at least I feel that most of the time I am pretty amicable. This is all I can really say about it. If someone is mad at you for something they feel you did to hurt or offend them, what happens when you apologize? Are they supposed to forgive you, or ignore you? Are they going to at least give you enough dignity to give you a response at least, good or bad? What if they are prone to fits of melodramaticism, then is it really all your fault? Baaaaahhhhh, hello I'm a big black sheep.

Another random thought. And let me just say that I am much better than a lot of my friends are at making the effort to stay in touch and calling regularly. Not better than all, just most. Just saying.

On a good note today, my stupid computer is fixed now. Blogging on here was really annoying to do on my blackberry. Berry sore thumbs!

Next is the olympics. Oh how I have a bipolar, love/hate relationship with the olympics! So, as I know most vancouverites feel, we all got a late start on getting that olympic spirit, but out it finally came the opening week. Out came the wanting to see the torch run when it arrived, the red mitts, the red and white apparel, hoodies, flags, etc. Even I succumbed to it, something which I thought would never happen. I went to the city hall and was excited to see all the people there to see the flame as it was carried past. I won't explain it, chances are you've been inundated with enough olympic pride media to last you a lifetime. I will, for the moment, refrain from all my negative thoughts towards the olympics, u know, all that crap about it coming out of our taxpaying asses for the next millenium or 2. My friend Mess came to spend a few days here with me, to see Van and all the fun olympic stuff. that is an adventure I will explain in detail at another time. We spent 3 straight days downtown, and although nice, I am still recovering from the craziness. I nearly lost my voice and my mind! I am now committed to hiding in my bed with my puppy, only leaving the house for work or school for the next few weeks. I'm a people person and even iI'm sick to death of people right now! Oh yes, and might I mention very smartly that having the olympics here has NOT been good for business! Our restaurant is growing cobwebs in it!

Notice a growing trend, I am going through my thoughts in the order I described to you in the first paragraph. I am not even half done.....which is fine. But I'm tired now so I suppose that I will have to do this in 2 parts. I know much of this has seemed somber, but thats only because I'm getting it out of the way.  All the happy things I was thinking about today are coming up....I promise!

Friday, February 19, 2010

weird dreams

So I've been noticing that I've been having a lot of strange dreams lately....and they often seem to involve people who are actually no longer in my life. People who I loved dearly but the relationship became more caustic and harmful than good. I find myself wondering, why am I dreaming about these people? Is it because it is my subconscious way of telling me that I'm moving on, or is it that I just miss them? Maybe it's both, maybe it's neither, All I keep telling myself is that these people aren't in my life for a reason, and I have to hold true to that.

On a lighter note, it has been absolutely beautiful here, so sunny and warm, all of the daffodils and crocuses are beginning to bloom. It always makes me feel hopeful for the future, to see spring steadily approaching. Jaika, my puppy, has been loving this weather, and constantly asks to be let outside or go for walks! (Yes, she's not too subtle about standing at the door and whining!) She's a bit of a diva and hates the rain, so this is a nice change for her!

In any case, odd dreams or no, in the morning, after the cobwebs clear and the sun is shining, it's hard to remember what all those silly things were about.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Cool makeup tutorials

Well, this has been a pretty good week. Yesterday I checked out all the Olympic Pavilions downtown, visited my good old Saskatchewan Pavilion, which was nice to have a little taste of home. But I'll talk about that later, and post all the pics. Right now, I want to talk about something else quickly.

I hope that you all enjoyed my little talk about beauty products the other day. It is meant to be just tongue in cheek, enjoyable stuff. You know when you find things you really like, you want to tell your friends about it, whether it be makeup, a new blender or a tv show! So that's just basically what this is! Obviously, I'm no makeup expert or anything like that....although I do know some things! Regardless, if you actually want tips from a bonified makeup artist, go to   She's really incredible and sweet and teaches you makeup looks step by step; and she is a real artist, she does alot of work in LA with photo shoots and celebs. She also does these neat tutorials for doing makeup for halloween costumes; anything from snow white to the queen of hearts to jem!

So thats it for now! Peace and love!

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Makeup loves!

So for my first attempt at writing something everyday, I am going to write about something shallow. I mean, I have a lot of other things to say, which I will, but right now this is something fun and easy. Ok, so what is it? My newfound obsession with makeup! Eye makeup especially. One late night, after a few glasses of wine, I was randomly searching youtube videos, when I came across this vlogger. Her name is Aubrey, and she does makeup reviews and tutorials. At first I thought her to be a little vapid, but once I watched a few vlogs, I saw she was quite experienced with makeup, and smart besides. (she's studying nursing in school) I've found so many new products from her, and learnt new application techniques as well. Ok, so her vlog is  Decide for yourself. Take it with a grain of salt, as I did. This is not the stuff life is made of, but just one of the fun things a girl can do to treat herself now and then.

Ok, so with that said, I have mentioned being really into eye makeup right now. Specifically, I'm loving Urban decay products. They're really highly pigmented, so you don't need alot, and they go on so even and smooth. Plus, they have great colors for every occasion. (should I be an urban decay rep, lol?) So last week I was checking out my People mag: style watch edition, when I came across this. It's a special edition palette from Urban Decay; the Alice in Wonderland book of shadows.


So pretty!
Ok, so I went on youtube and watched a whole bunch of vlogs about people getting this palette, and of course all the reviews were awesome. So many nice colours, plus it came with 2 eyeliners, and their top selling eye primer potion. You could get this product at either or sephora, so of course I resolved to go the very next day to nab it. You know how you find something you really want, and can't stop thinking about it? I was a woman possessed! Well of course I wanted it for the makeup, but I also really wanted it for the packaging. It's got this gorgeous pop up of a scene from the book, movie, etc. I have loved alice in wonderland since I was a little girl. For those of you who know me well, that shouldn't be a surprise, as I have always been a big fan of all literature and movies of the fantasy genre. I remember reading the book, and wishing I were Alice, that such a place existed. But I digress. So, here was the next day, and I just had to go get this thing. I knew it was really popular and might be sold out, but I was crossing my fingers. Alas, they were all sold out, by the second day! And because it was a limited edition, the sales girl said they probably won't even get anymore in. WAAAAAHHH! I was so disappointed.  But I couldn't leave without getting something, right? I mean, I had planned my day and gone out of my way to come all the way down here, I can't just leave emply handed? Lol, oh I can pretty much justify anything if I really want to! So I went into the urban decay aisle, hoping to lift my spirits. And I found a smaller book of shadows, that I had remembered hearing good things about.  Lots of the girls on youtube had said the alice book of  shadows had many of the shadows from different smaller books that were always available. So this is what I got.

It's called the Urban Decay Ammo Eye Palette ($44) CA avail @ Sephora.

Of course I couldn't walk away without a good set of eye brushes. Trust me, I'm a true believer of good brushes now. Even with a good product those little sponge things or cheap, crappy brushes just don't do your eyes justice. I walked around a bit and looked at a few different sets until I decided on one. Okay, so not super cheap, but still reasonable, and I figure it's an investment. I chose the Too Faced Teddy Bear Hair Set.
 Available for ($70) CA at Sephora stores.
These brushes are sooo nice, and they come with the cutest pink carrying case! It has 4 eye brushes; fluff, angled liner, angled shadow, crease, and a blush brush, which I kind of needed a new one of anyway. These are made of synthetic hair, and so soft and smooth. They work really well and I couldn't be happier with them. 

I also bought the Urban Decay Eye Primer Potion. This was also included in the Alice Palette that I wanted, and I had heard tons of good comments on this product. I may like makeup, but I don't usually like a ton of steps. On a normal day I like my makeup to be done in ten minutes from start to finish. So I'd never used an eye primer before, much less a good one. I love this stuff! The applicator has a slanty brush, so that it's easier to apply. It goes on so smooth and seamless, and really makes your eyeshadow last all day, and not crease. I even did a little experiment where I did one eye with it and one without. Guess which eye looked better at the end of the day!
Available for ($22) CA @ Sephora.

So that's my makeup haul for the month. It's pretty good and I'm quite happy with it, even if I didn't get the Alice In Wonderland Palette. (sniff!) Hopefully they decide to release more at some point...I'll be waiting! So now I'm going to try to be productive before I go to work, and take the dog for a walk. She's giving me "Mom, I have to poop" eyes. Have a good day all!

Drivel...aka Writing Workout Day #1

One thing that I've definetly noticed in the last few years is how much harder it is to write. When I was in high school, writing was such a huge part of my life, I did it every single day. Now, I go days without writing. I don't know it just life in general that prevents this? Just being tired from work and school and the normal stuff? Or is it deeper rooted, a personal writers block, if you will. Sometimes I think it is just pure laziness, not wanting to put in the effort. So much of the time, when I do decide to write, I am impatient for it to be done, such as now. Like, ok, that's enough, I'm tired. Like jeez, I slept for 9 hours last night, there should be no excuse! Maybe it's like working out; you have to do it all the time to stay in shape. Maybe I have to write everyday, even if it's just pure drivel, just to keep the mind sharp. Okaaaay, so that's not a bad idea. Maybe that's what I'll do. So call this writing workout day number one. Not my best work, but so what? I have so many thoughts and opinions, ideas, and things I just want to say. I have the right to be able to express and share them with others. So I guess I should just hurry up and get to it then?